This is crazy.. I have never felt like this with anyone before. I’m always afraid of getting hurt. I met you & I knew you were something different, I told myself that I wasn’t going to fall.. but I did. But I’m happy I did, look where we are now. Even though you’re not mine.. I feel complete. Even though you might not ever be mine.. I still have hope. Even though late nights like these make me think about giving up, something tells me to keep going. I told you I’d wait for you because I know how hard things are right now.. my parents are probably the main reason. I promised you that things would get better & I know they are. I know it’s hard because we don’t go to the same schools.. you know I’d transfer in a heartbeat. But what good would that do me? What if you don’t want to be more then what we are right now.. then I’d just go to school & have to walk by you & just get broken every time I see your face.
I’m scared to loose you.. even when you’re not mine. If I ever do get to call you mine.. damn, I don’t even know. That’d be amazing. I’m trying to be more positive.. I really want things to work. You’re different. I want you & only you.
I’ll wait.. like you said, “You won’t wait.” Just let me prove you wrong, & when I do.. what happens? Will that prove to you that it was meant to be? What’s going to make you say, “Be mine?” Will you ever say those words to me? Or am I just.. a ‘booty call’, am I just ‘the hook up’ for the summer.. Please, don’t be that. I don’t know what I’d do. You don’t know what you’ve done to me already. If something happens.. where you don’t want there to be an ‘us’.. I’ll be prepared because my life always seems to be full of disappointing things. I just hope you’re not one of them.
When I met you.. my heart found a home.
Love always, me.
